sundays are the worst.

i don't know what to do with what i'm feeling right now.
should i bury it, axe it or burn it?

bats overhead,
spinning stars,
wind panting barely,
but just loud enough to echo...

all the random tunes that go along with the silence in my head..
i think i need medication.

two months ago,
all i needed was to slip into your arms,
and have you whisper "everything will be okay".

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0 comments @ 2:50 PM

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but not this year.
=(

this time last year,
i didn't know it would be my last cny celebration till god knows when.
so i didn't take alot of pictures of when i was with my grand and gramps.
they're not big on taking pictures cos they always say they don't look decent enough.
it's just sad that they might not be there anymore when i'm back.

but happy chinese new year to the rest of you.

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The little things, you do to me are
taking me over, i wanna show ya
everything inside of me
like a nervous heart that, is crazy beating
my feet are stuck here, against the pavement
i wanna break free, i wanna make it
closer to your eyes, get your attention
before you pass me by

So back up back up take another chance
Don’t you mess up mess up I don’t wanna lose you
Wake up wake up this aint just a thing that you
Give up give up don’t you say that I’d be
Better off better off, sleepin by myself and wonderin
If im better off better off, without you boy

So don't just leave me hanging on

And every time, you notice me by
holdin me closely, and sayin sweet things
i don't believe, that it could be
you speakin your mind and, sayin the real thing
my feet have broke free, and i am leavin
i'm not gonna stand here, feelin lonely but
i wont forget you, and i won't think this
was just a waste of time

apparently i'm back to the phase where i quote lyrics i relate to.
i'm 18 all over again.
which feels oddly long ago.

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4 comments @ 12:32 AM

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i will never forget



how you used to call me tingku,
and i retaliated by calling you moukuku.
which basically means dickless, you bananas.



the relief i felt
when you said the stupid mushroom haircut i got in taiwan looks good on me.
not because i was seeking your approval or anything,
but because if i could rely on anyone for the cold hard truth or criticism,
it's you.



playing minesweeper and checkers with you online.



how i pretended to understand all the physics or math stuff you taught me.
no actually the math i understood, but physics had never been my forte,
you WERE a good teacher. =)



the sms from you that made me cry.
'when you're at your best, you're really a somebody.
when you're at your worst, you're a total nobody.'
familiar?
i don't even know whyyyyyy we got into that row.
but our friendship took a hiatus.
and then i don't know hooooooowwwww,
we started talking again and we've been cool ever since. =)



how you found my private blog!
and discovered that i used to have a crush on you!!!
=O
but that was 7 years ago kay people.

okay my memory is lousy.
more than 5 years of friendship and this is all i remember.

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i dread the time when i have to do this for
sammie, joel, theresa and the rest who might be leaving soon too.

tears will roll.
i just don't know how NOT to get emotional knowing that
i'm parting with my best friends one. by. one.

heck, tears are already rolling.
i know the cliche-d
goodbye, take care and i'll miss you is cow poop.
there's so much to say really.
but faced front i'm tongue tied.

maybe i'm scared.
that you guys won't feel the same.
that i'll be the only idiot crying yet
I'M NOT THE ONE WHO'S LEAVING!
yet, at least.

maybe it's cos i want to be happy for you.
knowing that you people really deserve the opportunity to study abroad.
and that a brand new start awaits you.
a brand new life.
a great one and i know it.

anyway back to chern han,
what to say that i haven't already?
ummm...

BUY ME STUFF?
and avoid central park at night at all cost!

yeah i think that's it.

keep in touch.
that's all i really want from you.
xooooooooooooooooooooooooox

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nothing.
just...

bringing emo back.

exams,
visa application,
mom issues,
housing application.

five more months till i hit the hula land.
why am i not excited at all?

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